I TRIED EVERYTHING TO GET PREGNANT: THEN I TRIED GOD

 
A Heartfelt Journey of Faith and Overcoming Infertility | Where Is Your Voice Podcast

In this episode of 'Where Is Your Voice' podcast, Erica shares her deeply personal and emotional journey of struggling with infertility and the challenges she faced along the way. From enduring multiple miscarriages, tumultuous relationships, and moments of despair, to finding faith and joy in motherhood, Erica's story is one of resilience and hope. She intertwines her narrative with biblical scriptures and prayers, offering encouragement to those on a similar path. This poignant episode underscores the power of faith, prayer, and divine timing in the journey to parenthood.

00:00 Introduction: Struggles of Conceiving
00:50 Personal Journey: Early Relationships and Challenges
01:47 Unexpected Pregnancy and Heartbreak
03:12 Loss and Grief
06:53 New Beginnings and Continued Struggles
09:28 Faith and Miracles
11:40 Scriptural Encouragement
15:55 Final Thoughts and Prayer

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 I TRIED EVERYTHING TO GET PREGNANT, THEN I TRIED GOD

I TRIED EVERYTHING TO GET PREGNANT, THEN I TRIED GOD

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Introduction: Struggles of Conceiving

Have you been trying to conceive a child? And no matter how hard you try, it is just not happening, and you're unsure. You're unsure why. I have great news for you. I was in your shoes and I know exactly how you feel. For many years I was trying to conceive a child and I truly thought that maybe having a child just wasn't for me.

So before I share my testimony, my name is Erica, and welcome to Where Is Your Voice podcast. I am so blessed that you are here. Now my role to having a child was not easy whatsoever. And I remember all of my friends and people I know getting pregnant all around me, and it didn't make sense to me why it was not happening for me.

Personal Journey: Early Relationships and Challenges

I. I was in a relationship with my ex all through high school, and we got our first apartment together. He proposed to me while we were living there and [00:01:00] about a year into our relationship, we were trying to have a child, and I would look up when I was overing, I would hang upside down, do all the tricks it takes to have a child, and we never got pregnant.

I took many tests when we were together. And they always said negative. I lived in disappointment and maybe. That this would never happen for me. Fast forward, the relationship went left and we broke up. I ended up in a new relationship and that relationship moved quickly, but it wasn't a healthy relationship.

He would steal my car to break into people houses. And he was a thug, but I was in love with him. 

Unexpected Pregnancy and Heartbreak

Four months later into our relationship, I found out that I am pregnant. How could I be pregnant? And I was just in a relationship for five years and we never got pregnant and I didn't think I could [00:02:00] get pregnant.

So before I had time to digest what was happening inside my body. We get locked up together because like I said, he was a thug and he was using my car to break into people houses. So while in jail, they told me again. That I was pregnant and I am thinking, how could this be my life? Finally, I am pregnant by not by who I wanted to be and not in the circumstances that I am, man, because he was on parole and it is no telling if he's even going to be around to help me take care of the baby.

In the meantime. I was still going to go see him while he was in jail because I was bonded out, but he couldn't get out. And I am finding out when I go see him that he had been cheating on me the whole time. [00:03:00] And by this news I was livid and in tears and screaming, and I didn't wanna have a baby. And I was saying.

 I was screaming out loud that I did not wanna have a baby. 

Loss and Grief

And as I was saying, this blood clots started to come out of me and I was rushed to the hospital with regret of the words that I just said about my unborn child. They told me. I was okay, but to stay off of my feet. I decided to keep working and I picked up a shift at work and on my way home, I got into a car accident because someone drove out in front of my car and totaled my car.

I was rushed to the emergency room with a bruised up knee, but was fine, and the baby was fine, so I thought. For the next 30 days after that car accident, I bled heavy clots every day. And no [00:04:00] matter how many times I went to the doctor, they said I was fine. They even told me that I was having a daughter. I named her Nina, and me and my current boyfriend her father.

Was still going strong and I kept visiting him in jail and he even got my name tattooed on his arm to prove that he was in love with me. And one day after work, I was at home and I was staying with my mom and her husband at the time. I was in the bathroom, hurled over in a lot of pain, and I was in so much pain.

I was groaning in pain and bleeding a lot, but that was normal for me. The pain was not normal, but in my mind, I knew something was wrong. I was scared to face it, so I just stayed in the bathroom hoping the pain would go away. My mom husband heard me and he woke [00:05:00] my mom up so she can drive me to the hospital on the way to the hospital.

I remember being in some of the worst pain that you can imagine, and as soon as we pulled up, I remember screaming and pushing. Then when we got out the car, I heard a large. Thump sound, and in my heart I knew that was my baby, but I talked myself out of that thought because it was too much to bear in my mind.

My mom heard it as well, and she told me to go ahead in the hospital and she. Went to go check it out. Then while we were in the hospital, the doctors did his checkup and he let me know that the baby did pass inside of me and that the baby actually did fall out in the car. And he asked me if I wanted to see her.

And of course. I said, yes, I wanna see my baby Nina. And he brought Nina to me, and she was tiny. She was pale. She wasn't fully [00:06:00] formed, but you can tell that she was a baby and she was my baby that didn't make it. The doctors told me that my sack had tore, and that's how she passed. I remember leaving the hospital and wanted to scream.

As I walked out, I lost my baby, but I held back and I screamed. But it's just in my head. Instead, nobody cared that I lost my baby. My job yelled at me to come back to work the next day after I told them what happened. My friend didn't wanna talk about it because she said what I was going through was worse, wasn't worse than what she was going through.

My mom had just got married and the father. The of my child was in prison, so he couldn't comfort me, and I never did get comforted about it, and I just buried it and moved on with my life. 

New Beginnings and Continued Struggles

I did break up with the prison guy because he wasn't a good relationship anyway, and I met this new guy at [00:07:00] the server job.

That I had, and I fell quickly for him. The relationship was going good at first until I moved in with him and then he got toxic. But I tried to make it work with him because I didn't have anywhere else to go At the time, he actually had two kids of his own that were teenagers and he said he wanted to start over with me.

So we were actively trying to have a child, and three years later we got pregnant. And he was excited. So was I until we went to get our first ultrasound and they told me that I had a blighted ovum, which means that I have a sack, but no baby inside of the sack. So I will miscarry eventually. Eventually happened while I was at work and they were not nice about it at all.

I needed to leave and be rushed to the hospital because I was in a lot of pain and I knew that I was most likely miscarrying. The looks and the treatment they gave me at work was like [00:08:00] I was hard to deal with. They just did not wanna deal with me. But, I went ahead and left, drove myself to my boyfriend house so he can drive me to the hospital.

And as soon as I get to the hospital, they rush me in the back room, and my boyfriend at the time had brought our dog with us. So he said that I'm gonna take our dog back home and that he would come back to the hospital. He told me he would be back there before I knew it. And because I was miscarrying, the hospital made me stay there all night just to monitor me.

But my boyfriend never returned back to the hospital. I was in the hospital all day, all night alone. They were about to discharge me from the hospital. And he was nowhere to be found. I was calling him, he wasn't answering. I finally managed to get a hold of him. He comes to the hospital and he was yelling at me like I was in the wrong.

The hospital staff almost put him out, and I was so sad because I sat in a hospital [00:09:00] all alone in pain and it was just a lot on me. But I stayed with him hoping we will have a child soon after that issue. Years go by and we don't get pregnant. He ends up going to jail for about six months and during that time he was in jail.

I started working on my relationship with God, my health. I did the master clans, lost weight and was working out and one Sunday. 

Faith and Miracles

At this random church in a random preacher that I never met before as my first time at this church. First time seeing this preacher, but the preacher was a guest speaker and he just came up to me out of everyone, and he put his hand on my.

Stomach and he started praying for my womb. And he even said that this one was not gonna come like the ones before. And I was like, what made him do that? Because my boyfriend was in jail and I was thinking about. Kids, but [00:10:00] not really that much anymore, had put that thought outta my mind. And so I was just shocked that this random preacher started praying for my womb.

I just thought wow, like I don't, I'm not, I didn't consider myself as being in a relationship, but when my boyfriend did get in jail, we actually did get back together. And we started going to church together, and one time we went to this Christmas Eve service and the preacher said that you should ask God for a Christmas gift because he loves to give gifts.

And so that night I prayed to God for him to give me a baby, and nine months later, I gained my first child, a baby boy. And and then, so I gained a baby boy nine months later. And on Mother's Day I got him Christian and gave him back to God. And then 16 months after he was born, God gave me a daughter.

And now both of my children are now [00:11:00] 14 and 13 years old. When I had my son, I almost died. That delivery ha was rough. They had to give me a blood transfusion. The pregnancy was rough because I had clots and my sack. So I had to be on bed rest for a while and it was hard, but. , that delivery was hard, but I think Jesus so much for my kids because they helped me change my life.

And that's why I believe God answered that prayer because he knew that me having kids will only make me love him more. 

Scriptural Encouragement

So here's some scriptures I wanna add to encourage you as well on your journey. And first Samuel. Chapter two, verse five through 20. But to Hannah, he gave a double portion because he left her and the Lord had [00:12:00] closed her womb because the Lord had closed Hannah's womb.

Her rival kept provoking her in order to iit her. This one on year after year, wherever Hannah went up to the house of the Lord. Her rival provoked her till she wept and would not eat. Her husband, Ana would say to her, Hannah, why are you weeping? Why don't you eat? Why are you downhearted? Don't mean more to you than 10 sons.

Once when they would have finished eating and drinking in Shiloh, Hannah stood up. Now Eli, the priest, was standing on his chair by the doormat of the Lord's house in the deep anguish. Hannah prayed to the Lord weeping bitterly, and she made a vow saying, Lord Almighty. If you will only look on your servant's misery and remember me and not forget your servant, but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for the days of his life and no razor will ever be used on his head [00:13:00] as she kept on praying to the Lord.

Eli observed her mouth. Hannah was praying in her heart and her lips were moving, but her voice was not heard. Eli thought she was drunk and said to her. How long are you gonna stay drunk? Put away your wine? Not so my Lord, Hannah replied. I am a woman who is deeply troubled. I have not been drinking wine or beer.

I have pouring out my soul to the Lord. Do not take your servant for a wicked woman. I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief. Eli answered. Go in peace. May the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him. She said, may your servant find favor in your eyes. Then she went on her way, ate something, and her face was no longer downcast.

Early the next morning, they arose and worshiped before the Lord, and then went back to their home at Ramah. Kinon made love to his wife Hannah, and the Lord remembered her. [00:14:00] So in the course of time, Hannah became pregnant and gave birth to us. Son, she named him Samuel saying, because I had asked the Lord for him.

Hannah dedicates. Samuel when her husband, Ana went up with all his family to offer the annual sacrifice to the Lord and to fulfill his vow. Hannah did not go up. She said to her husband, after the boy is weaned, I will take him and present him before the Lord and he will live there always, as you heard.

Hannah never stopped praying for a baby. She even prayed so hard for one that the man of God thought she was drunk when he saw the reason he even prayed as well. And we all know what is bound in heaven is bound in earth, and what is loose on heaven is loose on earth. So keep praying and have others pray for you as well, but also trust that God.

Will have it happen when it's [00:15:00] his timing, because his timing is always best because as you heard in my own testimony, if I would have conceived any earlier, I would have not been ready. And you don't wanna cause more hardship on your life because cause having kids is. Causes hardship, it is joy, but it is a lot of work as well.

And you also don't wanna be like Abraham's wife Sarah, who birthed a child before it was time, as mentioned in Genesis chapter 16. So relax and enjoy this. Season, the season of you and God getting to know each other and learning ways on how you can help the kingdom before you have kids. Because once they come, they bring a whole new laundry list of trials, and of course, blessings as well.

So 

Final Thoughts and Prayer

I hope this encouraged you. And I'm gonna go ahead and [00:16:00] pray and if you leave a message or add a comment or anything or just email me, I will add you to my prayer list and I will for sure pray for you every single day. Until God opens your womb up to get that child. Because I know how gut wrenching it is.

'cause I was there too, and it was some time. But one thing I will say is that he did make it happen. So I wish I would've just relaxed and enjoyed that season of not having kids. 'cause once they're here, they ain't going nowhere. All right. Let's pray. Lord, we come to you. The name of Jesus. Humbling, gratefully, just so honored.

First off, Lord, to be your chosen vessel. Lord, we wanna say that we know that your way is best. We wanna say we know that your will is best Lord, but we have earnestly praying God, I have people listening now that have been earnestly praying, [00:17:00] Lord, for a baby, Lord, open their womb up. God open their womb and plant a sea.

Seed of love in that, in their life, Lord. And when you do Lord, they will give that baby back to you Lord, and know that they will be good stewards to this child. Teach them the right way. Teach them the truth and love God. And we know that. Them having a child, Lord is in your purpose and will and for their good because it's also for your good and that you will make this happen.

They can relax and have faith in you that you are opening up their womb right now. God, in name we pray. Amen. All right. Thank you so much for walk watching and I hope you have an amazing day and parenthood is right around the corner for you. God bless you.[00:18:00]